In exactly 33 hours I will be exactly 40 years old. I am beyond
excited. As I sit here listening to Dio's Holy Diver on XM's Bone Yard
I embrace my 4 decades of growth and learning. It has certainly been a
heck of a ride so far. There were quite a few bumps and some huge dips,
but all of it has brought me to this moment in time. Today I sit here
a happy, healthy woman of strength looking towards the future with hope
and confidence. What more could someone ask for as they approach this
milestone? With genes that allow the women of my family to live into
their 90's I know that my life is not even half over and there is so
much yet to do. So I'd like to take a moment to look towards the
future and what I might do with the next 50 or 60 years.
1. Continuing to be a good wife and mother are first and foremost on
my agenda. Add to that being a good daughter, daughter-in-law, sister,
aunt, niece, cousin, friend co-worker....well you get the idea. I just
want to continue to be supportive and loving to all of the people close
to me in my life.
2. Physically I would really like to see the next decade to be one of
strengthening. The only sour note to my birthday celebration is that
my back is giving me quite a bit of pain. I have been in a period of
constant pain for about 4 weeks now and it wears on me. I can see it
on my face as the dark circles spread and the set of my mouth shows
that I am biting back the pain. Somehow, someway I need to make it go
away. So I want to continue my search for healing and a return of the
strong body I once had before having Gracie.
3. Spiritually I've been somewhat adrift in this last decade. I would very much like to find a community of similar souls.
4. Financially my goal has always been and always will be to simply
have enough. Since taking my job at HQ we have been blessed with the
peace of mind of knowing that we have enough to pay the bills and
indulge Gracie and ourselves on occasion. That is all I ever want.
Riches always look nice, but it seems to me that they always come with a
price. I have a husband who can be home with us and can spend time
with his daughter and so can I. We are very blessed.
5. Before I die I will be published. Somehow, someway my thoughts
and words will be in print and for sale at your local bookstore. It
may be quite some time before I am able to make the commitment that
this goal requires, but I know it will happen. I just has to.
6. I will return to teaching. Whether in the traditional sense of the
word or through seminars and conferences. I will take to that stage
again and I look forward to that day when I can once again call myself
teacher.
7. Is it shallow to add that before I die I'd like to meet Gene
Simmons or Paul Stanley? What the hell, it's my list!!! I'd really
like to meet either one of them long enough to say thank you for not
only the music, but for the confidence their own uniqueness gave me
when I was a young girl so very different from everyone else around
her.
This list will grow and grow and grow, but for now it satisfies me. Soon my beautiful little girl and my amazing husband will be home. I will throw my arms around them and together we will begin my weekend long celebration. My blessings are so great and my heart is so full of joy. Thank you God for 40 wonderful years!
